Stupid Flies...

I went to UQ today for my orientation for Architecture, and after about 4.5 hours at uni they gave us free lunch. Now today was a mildly hot day, and flies were pretty rampant. Just as the food was ready, as I was reading through the material that they had given us, a fly flew straight into my ear and lodged itself within my inner ear and I swear it was pressing against the cartridge and stuff in my middle ear. For 20 odd minutes, I was shaking my head around like a dog out of a pool. And it didn't work, I thought I was gonna need to go to the doctors to get them to pick out the fly for me.

Funny enough, it didn't really gross me out persay, at first you could feel it wriggling around as it was lodged tight in position, and making buzzing noises. And then once it started to calm down a little bit, you could feel its feet moving against the side of your ear. I'd have to say it was slightly tickly. yeah... it's not a common experience... not a really good one either... I was more worried about the potential ear infections though. Anyways, after deciding that I could possibly pinch my inner/middle ear by pushing into my ear from behind my jawbone, i managed to squeeze the stupid insect out.

Yeah... that's my tory for today...

Work training day...

Yeah, I had a 9 hour training course today at work... Today as in Sunday... I was whinging for about a week and a half away from it because it killed my whole day, and I would miss out of going to church, miss out on the bible study, and miss out on the church worship team training sessions that I was meant to be at...

But I guess in the end, a part of me missed going to church because I couldn't be with other people... I couldn't be with my friends... And I know that these are wrong reasons to be wanting to go to church. And although I have significant genuine reasons to go to church, I still have this urge to be there just because of friends.

So I had a week of being pissed at work because of these arrangements. Though in hindsight I realise that I probably need to reflect on my priorities for going to church and how it will affect my christian walk. I guess I still have problems at times with letting God be number one in my life... taking priority over everything else... but hey... Nobody is perfect and I'm still "work in progress" I guess...

anyways... 9 hours was pretty crap :P
thats enough for now

Most accident prone day of my life...

I hope it will be a long long time before a day like today repeats itself in my lifetime...

First... I accidentally reversed into a stopped car behind me... which screws my insurance up once more... as well as my bank account... Then we went Ice skating... and I stacked a grand total of approximately 21 times... 4 or 5 of which occurred during a massive game of red rover which I consider extraordinary circumstances... and yeah... i can feel those bruises... if all my stacks were recorded... I'd win funniest home videos hands down without a doubt.

I guess in hindsight, I'm more attached to the material world than I would think and hope... I feel so guilty over damaging someone else's property through my own incompetence, and damaging my own insurance rating which saps from my own future security. I had so much pride in my ability to drive and stuff, yet I realise how incompetent I actually am... That I am still just an ordinary human being with ordinary abilities. Little mistakes help avert future disasters by having protocols established to deal with these mistakes... It's days like these that makes me feel that life is far too fragile for my liking... Makes me look forward to the day this earthly life ends and a better life begins forever.

Ok that sounded very emo and masochistic... But I didn't mean it in that sense...

Taking a liking for Scrubs

Went to a friends place today... And usually I almost never watch TV, but today we ended up watching like 7 eps of scrubs. I kinda like it now, its such an ingenious combination of dumb humour, witty humour and serious notes. Anyways :P, I find it rather amusing. And it also has little bits of unorthodox yet true wisdom.

Neways... thats all I had to say :P...

Blasted Ants...

Now I dunno bout you, but as it stands it seems our house is under constant siege by hordes of ants of all kinds. I personally rather dislike ants due to bad personal encounters with them. While we noticed that ants were encroaching onto the kitchen bench where we were eating dinner, I didn't really expect the ants to go into our food while we were eating it... But that was just the side note.

I realise that ants are amongst the dumbest animals of creation. Seeing how they are willing to walk straight into their own deaths without reason or logic. Now ants drowning in honey... yeah that's reasonable... it's a food source right? But ants drowning themselves in a kettle filled with cold water? thats just stupid... I mean, animals that can't swim would generally stay clear of water or at least dislike water... But ants just wade straight into it...

The reason I don't like ants though, is because they are small and they bite. Being small they can get into places unnoticed, which is an issue. I remember I was wearing long trousers at school that day, leaning against a tree when I realised that there was a large number of green ants on the tree. I got most of them off me, but 1 had already got into my trousers, and proceeded to bite me 11 times as it journeys up my thigh... But I got rid of it somehow before it got too close although the last bite was about 1.5 inches away from the top of my leg.

O... and another bad experience with ants was at a year 8 camp... we had to go camping without tents for a night... and used tarps or whatever they were called to make our tent... That night it absolutely poured on us ie. rain, and my friends convieniently had chosen a site between 2 trees to set up our tarps... being tarps you have no isolation from the outside elements. And luck would have it, our site was right on top of a red ant nest. so through the whole night, we had massive ants of about 2cm+ lengths crawling through our tarp tent. I was the only person who managed to get any sleep at all lol... and I was lucky only to get 2 bites... But at about 3-4am in the morning my friends wake me up to tell me that they are gonna move the tarps away from the ants... Which by now was far too late lol... And got about another 2.5 hours sleep before we had to wake up lol... Not the best camp I've been on anyways haha...

but yeah... Ants are annoying to say the least...

Dream Comvulsions...

For some reason, when I doze off and start dreaming about stuff, if it involves movement of my body, the muscles responsible for that action will convulse ie. jerk around abit. I guess it falls along the same lines as sleep walking really... except maybe not such an extreme case. I think my sleep movements are definitely not as powerful as they used to be though, as I used to send pillows and blankets flying across the room as I kicked something in my dream :P. But I definitely know of these movements occur, particularly when I'm just about to wake up naturally, I can feel the muscles move while I'm still asleep. Over the years I've had quite a few strange dreams that included some kind of violence I'd have to say :P Including random bits of media that has been ingrained in my memory, like ninjas and jedis and weird and wonderful stuff like that. But hey... I guess its normal stuff...

Which just made me wonder, about the thing that allows you to control your dreams. It's like a pair of goggles/helmet that monitors your rapid eye movements during your sleep and emits a faint red light through your eyelids to allow you to gain consciousness without waking up fully. Thus you gain control over your dreams and can direct it where ever you please. Supposably it would allow you to gain inspiration for creative uses. Like new paintings or stuff like that. It's probably just some scientific experiment at this stage anyways, but it'd be pretty awesome to get your hands on one and wield your dreams with precision.

anyways, ima go

Gundam Wing Part II

When I lent the Gundam Wing dvd set to a friend of mine, I described the depth of the series and the fact that one actually has to concentrate on the story and the speeches of the characters to make clear the reasons behind each individual's actions. Once I gave it to him, I felt a very powerful urge to rewatch it myself, and after about 3-4 weeks my friend returned it unfinished. So the last 2.5 days, I plowed through the entire series, all 49 episodes of it. I believe I dismantled the series once before, however, that was drawn from my previous understanding of the series back in my Grade 6 days in 2001. One could say that as a 11 year old kid, one's understanding on the complexity of war and peace are severely limited. Having rewatched the series now 8 years later, I believe that I have a much more clear understanding of the message or theme of the series. One might be able to see the that I am rather obsessed with this series... Can't help it, I'm clingy :P

Neways, if the series had different core ideas and messages at different stages, I would split the series into 3 seperate ideas. the first third of the series focuses on the using of the name of peace and justice as a fascade for oppression and dictatorship. The pacifist leader of the space colonies was advocating a peaceful relationship with the Earth alliance, and to stop the oppression of the colonies. However, the leader is assasinated by OZ, a special forces division within the alliance military that is the strongarm of a foundation which seeks to gain power and establish a ruling class, a heirarchy of power & order. The Gundams were originally sent to destroy the entire alliance without mercy by rebel colonist opposed to the Earth alliance rule directed by OZ from within the alliance. However, the scientist and their respective Gundam pilots refuse to massacre and ravage the earth in revenge, believing that the peaceminded leader would never forgive them. They instead choose to attack OZ and OZ only, to attempt to foil their plans to establish unbalanced power rule on Earth and in space.

The second part of the series, as fighting escalates between the Gundams and OZ, peace ideals begin to surface within the alliance while the colonies, which the Gundams supposably protect, remain neutral. OZ and its Romefella foundation seeks to eliminate the pacifist as they oppose their ideal world in which power is ruled in the traditional way, unbalanced. OZ tricks the pilots into accidentally eliminating the peaceminded leaders of the Earth alliance and they assasinate the minister responsible for facilitating peace negotiations between the colonies and Earth. This allows OZ to dislodge the alliance and completely take over from within. The Gundams continue to attack OZ as it was their original goal. A nation that was previously destroyed due to its pacifism reignites its ideals of total pacifism, but proves to obstruct romefella's goals, and is quickly attacked and the nation desolves. Pacifism and the peace it produces is quickly obliterated in face of opposition.

The final part of the series shows as the colonist are tricked by OZ to arm themselves in defense to the growing strength of Romefella and the Earth. As minor powers gather together on both sides to form the Earth Nation and the revolutionaries of the White Fang (which reflect the anxious and retalitory intentions of a minority of the colonists) and tension rises between them. Unmanned weapons begin being deployed by the masses and war is beginning to be dehumanised as the major powers completely annihilate human resistance since a human cannot fight as well, with the precision and quickness of a machine. OZ's leader originally believed that pacifism was a cry of the weak, but strongly opposed the dehumanising of wars, making humans redundant on the battlefield. War loses its impact, and instead of achieving absolute victory with souless weapons, a demeanour to fighting is necessary. People will fight, and realise how pathetic and painful it is and choose to stop fighting. On a small scale however, history will repeat itself. But as leaders of both sides understand, they continue stir up a conflict of massive proportions just to get that point across to all of humanity. It states that certain conditions must be met in order for total pacifism to work and maintain itself. Certain foundations must be laid.

1. All weapons must be destroyed.
2. The desire to fight must be distinguished.
3. A heart that is capable of sympathise with people, kindness. And leaders with that heart.

One must watch it to understand. I would rarely speak of such medias with such high regards. However, the writers clearly thought long and hard on a storyline as politically and philosophically charged as this one. In a way, this storyline reflects what is happening in the world these days. War and Peace are constantly being toyed with, and "peacekeeping" forces are deployed worldwide in political "hot zones".

The feature length film that was created to finish off the series expands on these ideas. It's about the fact that peace isn't something that is just given to you. You must want it, badly enough to fight for it. And once everyone fights for peace, then you don't need to fight at all. Everyone means civilians, soldiers and politians alike.

Gets the mind thinking. It's why I like this series, and always will like it. Anyways I think everyone is sick of this "anime reviewing" crap that I seem to do for this series haha... like I said, I'm kinda obsessed with it. but hey... gotta go sleep.

Strange dreams...

I think its fairly obvious that these posts are getting less and less frequent... I guess at the start there was heaps to talk about, but as time goes on, only significant events are new or worth noting... anyways...

Last night's dream was indeed strange, from driving and crashing into the car infront and having my car bounce back off his car, and only having minor dents and scratches to falling asleep with about 8 pieces of gum in my mouth and choking while sleeping, which causes me to wake up and felt as if something was indeed lodged in my throat and started coughing. In my dream, my crash was because of a miscalculation on the required distance to stop with half the brake pedal down and realising too late that I was still moving to fast and hit. I have no idea why that would come up in my sleep lol... and why I would be chewing gum in my sleep is beyond me, and it seems that I have a habit of dreaming of myself sleeping... which is kinda strange... And to dream of myself choking was even weirder... Haha... well at least I didnt dream that I died :P those of the superstituous kind reckon that when you dream of your death, you will die soon or something random like that. I think I stated somewhere before about my liking of the anime that is Gundam Wing, and I have watched 45 episodes of it in 2 days... There was a particular quote in it about fearing death. "That's right, you mustn't fear your death, because death is only an end result given to you at your birth". I find that quite interesting. But anyways... yeah... thats enough for today...